Hello and welcome to my new blog post. In this blog I am going to talk about, Kick start your year by developing a new story of your life.
I often would get upset about the end of the year as I would get overwhelmed of what I didn’t do and wanted to do and would re-write the things I wanted to do, into the next year.
One tip# Stop making resolutions and make life changes as from my own experience, you are more likely to accomplish your goals set out and do the things you had planned.
If you could write a book about your life at the moment what would you write and share?
What positive feelings do you get when sharing your story?
Often we can feel stuck in a rut at the end of the year because we go round in circles a lot like I have in the passed, and this happenes it means we need to stop and develop a new story of our life.
So ask yourself, what would I like to be remembered for?
What do you wish to accomplish this new year?
How would I like my year to end?
At the end of each year I like to write in my journal and reflect over it, aswell as talk about it on this site and others (see below) and this year I found some questions online that helped me to do that:
Hello and welcome to my weekly Inspiring Stories post. This week I am talking about the musicality of the musical agenious, Fatboy Slim.
Now if you didn’t know he was in a band called, The Housemartins in my favourite decade the 80’s, and co-wrote many records such as the most famous one, “Happy Hour Again”, and the other song that they sang live in concert and is on Youtube,”The Caravan Of Love”.
He then once the band split up in the 80’s, continued to write and produce more music hits such as the “Weapon of Choice” and this song has a brilliant video featuring Christopher Walkin, who is a brilliant actor and just goes with the song.
Fatboy Slim is now a Top DJ and has played at many clubs, such as Minitry Of Sound and The Hammersmith Palais, which I would often visit being in my home town. It isn’t there anymore, but was a great place for music artistis, producers and DJ’s beginning their careers. He met his wife Zoe Ball through a famous Saturday morning TV show, which was Going Live on BBC 1.
He still produces music, but was diagnosed with having Crohn Disease so has been spending time with his family and friends that are very close to him. He and Zoe, who recently had her own morning show on a Saturday, DJ’s on Radio 1 and hosted It Takes Two for Strictly Come Dancing, have had children together and keep being reported of being split up, but they have not and love each other out of this world, in that she has helped raise awareness of Crohn Disease, aswell as helping him produce more music.
Fatboy Slim helped develop the band, The Housemartins and worked in music from a very young age of 16 as his dad was a record producer and Radio DJ, but he too was diagnosed with Crohn Disease, and lost his battle a couple of years ago.
Zoe has helped raise awareness of Crohn Disease as there isn’t much information of why and when a person has it, and if it is heriditory or not, but has been on programmes like This Morning which is a Magazine show on the UK channel ITV, talking about it.
Here is the famous song by Fatboy Slim, “Weapons Of Choice” with the brilliant video that was made:
He loved music as a kid and would spend endless days in his bedroom creating music like me, with a keyboard and guitar, which his dad bought for him and some of his songs stemmed from when he was a kid.
I think this goes to show that even as a child when many adults thought that kids didn’t know better, do and as they say “The Rest Is History”, and when creating music or books even as a kid helps to remember that it isn’t just a job like any other, and something to celebrate and remember that kid all those years back.
If you would like to know more about Crohn Disease then check out this link below about it:
I hope you all have a good new year and I will be back with another Inspiring story next week.
Hello and welcome! Now you aren’t seeing things I was writing this blog post at 3:25am, and once again someone has tried to destroy my soul, but everytime this happens I am not going to stay down but fight and let them know that they don’t scare me at all, and are just doing it for the sake of it.
I would sleep but if you read my previous blog post I have been having terrible nightmares. I can’t wait to start again and have a fresh new year to create and make lots, for you, and would like to say Thank you from the bottom of my heart for following me on this site and for liking my posts too. I do want to be away from my present situation. I no longer want to live where I was in Epsom, but live in London still and want a new life.
So how do you handle those who try to destroy and never support you,
Don’t give them the benefit. I.E: Focus on those who do have your back and if you aren’t ready to talk about it, allow the time with the person to switch off from those trying to hurt you
Create a plan to move away from them, and never allow their anger to rub off on you, and set them straight that they do not intimidate you, and they are making themselves look senile and stupid
Tell someone outside the situation. I suppose this is related to the first tip, but there are those that can have your back, but once you try to talk to them, they can shut you down and say to you that they do not wish to be invoved, so talking to someone on the outside, can be your safesst option
If they try to inprison you can call the Police as it is illegal to do this. It is a form of emotional abuse and a form of bullying
Bullies come as a pack usually, not as an individual so see if you can speak with the culprit on their own or have someone with you, to confront them. I used to think this wasn’t a good idea, but often when they see they can’t hurt you to get the reaction they want, they will give in or get more angrier and if they physically harm you then don’t stay silent, get help and support
If they begin to exclude you then don’t let this get to you, and get out of the situation for a bit. If they try to isolate you allow them to do so, so you can pop out and be with the rest of the world for a bit
They may try to push as many boundaries as possible to press your buttons, that will make you turn and be physical with them. Make it clear that they can do what they want but are just going to make it worser for themselves, and you do not care
If they start using your kids against you and not allowing you time with the children in your family, even if they aren’t yours then remind them you care for them too and would not do them any harm, or inform them if you are the parent of the child that you have a right to be with your kids not them. If they aren’t the mother either talk to the parent of what that person keeps doing and then talk to them once they are on their own to say, that there behaviour is not right and that you have a right to talk and entertain those children too
They turn everything you say. Keep a journal with date and details of the conversation, or record it. When they do this then remember that their hurtful words are more about them and not you. They just feel that you should be target number one, and want to bring you down to their level.
They make you feel that you are fighting a losing battle, because you feel that you can’t win, no matter what you do. So just do what you can. I got blamed about washing up, yet I always washed up but then someone didn’t like me doing that, so it was like “So what do you want me to do?”
Life can feel especially when you have these people in your lives hard work, but it needs not to be and so have a safe haven, a place you can go to take you away from those people, mine is my local gardens or the town where I now live in London.
Have something that helps you stay calm, as often people who want to destroy are doing it to get a reaction of hate back and to make you cry or be angry.
Meditation is a great way to switch off, or like I do, I get engrossed in my work whilst listening to music and sing my heart out, and this helps me stay calm, focused on the things that do love me and I love too.
Please stay true to yourself and strong and we can get through the time that are tough together and get rid of the negativiity that can often takeover our lives.
I wish you a good week as it is Monday again, and if I don’t post before new years Eve, then Happy New year and lets embrace 2021, which shines with many positive things.
I am listening to an ABBA song because music is one of my many healers, I was in the process of talking to a person in my life about this year and I still can’t talk about the first 5 months of this year, without wanting to break down.
I wrote a post, reviewing this year and want reflect on it too, as I want to address some parts that I am finding hard to talk about.
So at the beginning of his year from December to this year in March I was shaking like a leaf, was taking Diazapans, aswell as other medication and was a total mess. I was being hurt and if I say what, I know there will be people who won’t believe me, but I miscarried a lot this year without telling anyone.
I have been seeing someone new, as my marriage was over and I have now a proper true love but he was targetted to, and I have said this before, but it has felt like 4 years in one.
I was very suicidal and had a nervous breakdown indoors at one point and I still reflecting, I was having the most horrific nightmares that I am still having them, where I was going to be raped by a gang of bent Police officers, or be involved in a plane crash or be in a building that was collasping, the list goes on and on, but all there needs to be said is that they were so horrible that I still can’t sleep through the night.
Even now I write this I am breaking down, as honestly they have been the most horrendous nightmares I have ever had and I have been sleeping this part of he year up until midday, because I am scared of going to sleep at night.
I just was living in a nightmare, that at one point I thought would never end. I am writing about it now because I would never want anyone reading this to ever go through that. I realised that those who were making out were my friends, weren’t and that also were in my dreams too.
I feel very let down by some people and want this year to be gone. The other good thing that happened for me though, is that I am now a full time writer, which has been one of my ambitions since I was a kid, and I hope to be working in TV by next year, if all goes to plan.
I am now listening to a track that I have played a lot this year and it is the song, One & One by Robert Miles sung by Maria Nayler. It really has made me look at my life and see that there were a lot of begruding people in it, and I just want rid of all of that.
I want to be allowed at 42 years old, to live the life I have always wanted. I never once ever begrudged anyone, I was envious of people but knowing how they were, very two-faced some of them, glad that I am not like them and I am my own person, and have made my own journey into being the woman I was always destined to be, and I need to learn to give myself more credit than I do, as I can be my own worst enemy, and to stop doubting myself and that I can make it happen for myself.
So I want you all to do one thing for me. Look at yourself life like you have never done before and go through all that you have achieved in your life and the person you are and want to be.
You can do this anytime and at any age. I was writing journals since I learned to write which was very early as a kid, and loved making stories and writing music. It was a hobby that allowed me to switch off and be in my own little world. Keeping a journal is another way I am going to do this too.
Let me know what you have written down if you wish to share them with me either in the comments section below or if you would like me to see but not publish on this blog you can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
So I hope the next few days before the new years is a relaxing one for you and there will be more to come on this site and I will keep you posted, once I have these up on this site.
Hello and I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas as you can, being that we are in a Lockdown again.
Lockdown shouldn’t mean you have to stop creating success in your life and should egg you on to be more successful than ever before.
Now if you have not set a plan for 2021 for this to happen then there is no time like the present. To get started I want you to look on the web and go through all the things you have already achieved. To do this on the spot can make your mind go blank so just take some time to go through this, and then write it down.
Then when looking at these achievements, ask yourself, would I like to carry these on or want different achievements for 2021? Then write new achievements you want to accomplish, and then map it how you wish to get there.
Example: I want one of my goals to be to get back working out indoors again.
Check online for indoor fitness workouts
Have your workout gear already on
Do the workout
Then schedule in another workout even if it once a week to begin with
That is mapping it out. You do not have to do a whole chunk of stuff at one time because from experience, this is not a good idea as it can cause you to give up, as you have done too much too soon.
Gradual steps is a better way to blend yourself into the change you wish to make in your life.
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Then when you have mapped it out, then I want you to put together a vision board, and you can do this using a laptop via Microsoft Publisher, physically by cutting pages or pictures from magazines or using Pinterest.
Picture the visions of you working out or running the business you want to launch, and write about it, what you see, feel, body language, how you see people seeing you and how it will change your life forever.
If you would like to add as a positive habit, as the habits we have in our lives can dictate how we feel and look at our lives and if there is an area that needs to change to help us towards our goals, then make it. Is there something you do that you wish you could stop? As a bad habit is a bad behaviour and makes us resent ourselves, but when we make a positive habit, makes us pleased with ourselves and is a good behaviour, leading us to create our dreams.
Check out my vision board I have created on Pinterest these are things I know are going to happen for me next year and other things I would like to happen, not all in the space of a month but spread out across the year 2021:
I will be creating one using my White board but going to do this after Christmas.
When you have created the vision, then keep a note of each item and decide which one you would like to do first and set a deadline.
Have a calendar so you can mark it out, and make a list of items that may get in the way of completing this goal on your vision board but can work around the item already scheduled, and it helps to go through important dates you need to keep tabs on like family members birthdays for example. It will then give you an idea of what and where will the item on your vision board will fit in.
Go through the ones that are most important for to you first, and one way to do this is circle the items or put them in a category of A, B and C.
Remember these goals are to fulfill you not make you exhausted, so them out and give yourself rest time to.
I will post more as we get to the new year as I am going to create a Course and Ebook called Project 2021 to help you have a more success life and feeling of accomplishment and a better wellbeing.
Hello, it is Christmas Eve and wanted to get in another post on this site before Christmas day. I am somewhat prepared for the festive day of cheer. Still got my gifts to wrap up, but I am in the mindset this year of, it will get done, I just want to do it when I know I have one day left, or I may wrap a few today, but have decided to be more laid back about it this year.
At the end of the day will I be remembered for my gift wrapping?
You’ll never see on someone’s grave saying “She was a great person and knew just how to wrap gifts for Christmas”, it is something that we feel abliged to do, yet all that happens is that they will rip the gift wrap off, as with children especially, and just want to know what is in side the packaging, not what is on the outside.
I saw in I think it was in a Paul McKenna’s books, as he has written so many and asked “How would you like to be remembered?”. For me I want people to say I was loyal, kind heartened, once she was fan of something she was a fan for life and no matter what hurdles I had to face, in my life I was determind and never gave up, and faught back.
If you could write a letter to your younger self what would you say?
I have written a letter to my 16 year old self in the document linked below:
This is something that you should do often and compare letters to keep track of your life and remember that young girl who had a whole life ahead of you, as you still do.
It can make you take note of what you have achieved at that there were good times and if there is anything you would have changed.
For myself stop believing in Omens, because I moved to Epsom and thought seeing a cat that looked like my cat called Toby was an Omen to say to live there, yet I wish I hadn’t and believe in my gut instinct and live in London again.
Not to have left Butlins as I wanted to be a Red Coat and did often apply but then left in 2005 when I accepted that, that would never happen.
Do I believe that everything happens for a reason?
Not really I just think there are many paths that you take and you don’t have no idea of which path will lead to where but you get lead by hungar to have new chapters in your life, to be closer to people that are important to you, and as written in one of my other blogsites, relationships can change and you then can divert towards another route because it seems to be better than the other paths you’ve taken.
I think that you are influenced often by those that seem to be on your side, but like in the Film about the band Queen, Bohemium Rhapsody, where he trusts this guy who is in love with Freddy Mercury only to find he was a bad apple and was in on for himself.
These kind of people can cause you to have your guard up and become very weary of people. This year I have experienced this a lot, and I have broken my heart a lot through this year, that I can never get back but it has made me see who my real family and friends are.
Do I believe in new beginnings?
Yes I do, and that it never to late to start a new beginning. I never what to live in misery and that those that try to destroy you are just doing it, because they really are the ones that are very insecure. They just want to hit out at the closest person, and use everything against you.
Everyone has the right as we share this world we live in and so we should make room for other people who want happiness too.
If you are unhappy in a situation then it means you need to make a change to destroy that elephant in the room. Noone I believe wants to be unhappy I think we all strive to be happy, but some go the wrong way about it.
They believe if they hurt someone it will make them feel better and being horrible means that you are strong and noone can compete with you.
Yet as soon as you are horrible back they runaway like a little mouse.
So write down how you would like to be remembered for and what you would say to your younger self, that will help as you begin to continue with achieving success and happiness in your life, and remember goals can be set at anytime not just when we are in a new year.
Have a Merry Christmas and A Wonderful new year, but I will be posting more as we close this year down.
Many thanks for reading,
Carrie (L.M) X
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Hello welcome to my weekly blog where I write about people who have inspired me, and one of those people is someone who whenever I felt stressed about something, one of his songs would come on the radio, as if he knew I would be listening.
I have seen this man twice once at Wembley Stadium and then in Hyde Park, at the Hard Rock Festival, and was very much planned last minute but well worth it.
He was fornominal and I always say you know how good a person is at what they are famous for when they are brilliant live, and he was. It is the legendary, the First Sir of Rock, The Boy in Blue, Sir Rod Stewart.
I would go and see him again as it was one of the best concerts and festivals I have been too. Sir Uncle Rod did something that noone else did, and that he has had number hit record in every decade, since he began his career.
Now many think that he started his career in the Seventies, but as my father inlaw knows a lot about music back then, knows that he was actually known in the sixties as there is a Rock ‘n’ Roller who said his name in one of his songs, but obvioiusly was a youngster then, but yes people within the industry back then knew of him and helped him begin a career in music. It was a song sung by Jeff Beck.
He did the whole thing like many artists and even comedians back then did, performed in many Clubs and Pubs and was in a Rock Band called the Faces. He then as he moved towards the end of the 70’s began a Solo career and had endless hits like, If ya think I’m Sexy, Baby Jane, one of my favourites and saw live singing with Stevie Nicks at the Hard Rock calling festival, Maggie May and Have I told you lately that I love you.
They are but a few, but I could go on and mention more. There have been many artists within music that have not lasted but it has for Rod for over 70 years or so, and to last that long means that he has a forever lasting legacy which will continue to grow passed his life, like many singers of his generation.
Rod never really wrote many of his songs, but collaborated with various artists like Van Morrison, Stevie Nicks from Fleetwood Mac and his best mate who was also a band member of the Faces, Ronnie Wood, who wrote many of Cyndi Lauper songs, which became hits and another Artist I love listening too.
Ronnie and Rod were school friends and grew up together. It is good to have friends in the industry as you can have those who try to intervene and destroy you, but pretend to be a fan and a support, but move the carpet underneath you and try and take your fame away, for themselves.
I would love to see Cyndi Lauper and Rod Stewart do a song together, not hinting by any means but if you are reading this Sir Rod, who is actually Scottish not English, because he really is and you may see him at many of Scotland International matches in football and rugby, but I think it would be a massive hit and many may think they couldn’t because they have different voices, but it can. Noone thought that he would sing a Van Morrison song, with Van Morrison himself, because his music was mainly country and western, but he did.
They sang together live.
Here is a video of Rod Stewart performing with the wonderful and glorious Tina Turner, “It Takes Two”
His parents was born and raised in Scotland and he spent some of his childhood living their too, and always has respected the country in which he comes from, and has lived in London for a while too, aswell as America. He is but a few that have made it across the water, and will be a name and artist that everyone knows. One of his daughters is an artist too, Kimberley Stewart, and his gorgeous wife Penny is a household name, who was a model to begin with but since then been into photography and helped with the covers of her husband, Sir Rod, CD covers and has also been on loose women.
When he was in the Faces he was destined to be a pin up for many ladies, but since those days, his is very much a Private Family man and word has it he ain’t bad with the old Golf Club. Perhaps he could give my brother a clump being that he thought he was Nick Faldo when playing Pitch ‘n’ Putt, and loves spending Christmas both in America and Scotland.
There is a song that he recorded recently and do feel like I wrote the song in some way as it is the most beautiful song I have ever heard, and that is The First Time.
He does a lot of work with the Royal Family and is often invited to Royal Banquettes and parties, but he doesn’t shy away from being typical Rock and Roller, by the fact that he still sings and performs like he first began his career at the age of 16.
Rod, you are a legend and I hope there will be more songs and albums to come, and that he will do more concerts as I will most definitely be there if you do.
So I will be back next week sharing more Inspiring stories and please see enclosed a Christmas song by Rod Stewart:
Merry Christmas everyone! Many thanks for following my blog it truly is special feeling to know that you like my blog posts and if you have suggestions of content you’d like me to share then please leave a comment below.
Many thanks for reading,
Carrie (L.M) X
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I am so looking forward to a new year as I have many things on the horizon and if you haven’t set your life changes for the new year on its way, then there is no time like the present.
What type of Life changes can you make?Here are Ten Ways to building your life for 2021:
Getting up earlier than you have been. I find when I sleep in until midday it uses a lot of my day. It is okay to do this occasionally but not all the time. So set your alarm earlier, then eventually your body clock will adapt.
What I eat. I have lost a lot of weight this month as I don’t have a lunch each day now, but I eat when I am hungry and lowered my shopping budget from £40 a week to max £20 and lower each week.
Get into fitness. I have stopped doing regular exercise for bit, but do go out walking. I am going to do a boxercise workout each week starting from Christmas Day, like I do each year. I love going for a walk on Christmas Day and this year is no different.
Lower Social Media time. We can spend a lot of time on our phones, checking our Facebook and Twitter, that it can take over. I don’t spend a lot of time on social media. I use it to promote my blogs or celebrate an occasion or wish someone I know a happy birthday, but that is basically it.
Practice Self Care. I talk a lot about this a lot on this site, because part of being successful, is that your work evolves without continuously touching it so there are times where I can sit back and watch a bit of TV if I want to.
Read a book. My ex always would go on about how reading is so boring, to the point where I’d say “Have you heard yourself recently?”. I love setting myself time to read a book. It can help with my writing and on grammar, communication and with speech. I would encourage everyone to read as it can do wonders to your mind and wellbeing.
Keep a journal. I love having a journal and documenting things. It is so good to have all what is bothering me emptied out of my mind and cleared.
Give yourself a make over. This could go under Self care, but to build your life in 2021 is to spend time for yourself, so you can feel good aswell as looking after other people. It is good to buy some new clothes, get your hair done and have your make up done for you. Why not buy yourself a Christmas gift and having make over can be one of them.
Cook your favourite meal. So as we are heading towards Christmas once again, we will be left with Turkey unused and probably having it for a full two weeks until it has been all eaten, so why not post Christmas day heading towards a new year, if you have this time off, to cook another favourite meal that you like, aswell as Christmas Dinner to help you to feel happy. I find making a meal from scratch theruptic, and when I get my own place again I will be doing this a lot.
Go out and Socialise. So I know there is still news on COVID, but please do not allow it to stop you from seeing your friends and family. Just make sure everyone who comes into your home washes and sanitises their hands, and when out do the same if they have Sanitiser available. We have spent a lot of this year staying away from those we love, so let the new year be where you go out more and see all your friends like we did before COVID and explore.
I hope you have a good rest of 2020 but I am looking forward to move away from this year and start a new.
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In this post I am doing My Review of 2020 which I am going to do each year. My Review of 2020 is very mixed I started it by being a bit of a state to the point I was fighting and taking the pisss out of those that were trying to hurt me.
I lost a few people this year too, and was devastated. Kelly if you can hear me I love you to bits and I know what she’d say:
“See ya later allegator”
“Right back at ya Croccidile”.
Do I believe in recarnation? Yes because there was a little girl in South Park Gardens that looked just like Kelly as a little girl and she looked at me like Kelly did when she was a baby, and it did bring me to tears, but saw Kelly in this little girl and prayed, that if that is her, that she lives on and has the life she wants, and not taken away so cruelly.
I found my true love, and he has been a breath of freshair and has saved me in so many ways. I love everything about this guy and he makes me feel fullfiled every time we talk and see each other.
I started to write music again, which I hadn’t done in a long time and have a song out that is in an advert.
Many more stars and inspiring people have passed away this year, like Eddie Large, Sean Connery, the wonderful Barbara Windsor and Dame Vera Lynn, check out my posts about few of these people:
I will be writing more about celebrities that I have found inspiring.
I found Barbara Windsor inspiring because she came from a poor background, a family like mine at times, scrimping and scraping but became a household name, and my blogs have grown like I have, and I have learned a lot this year and one is realising that I am gno longer a jealous person, as it was those that were like that, that tried to stop me from one thing I love to do, and that is write my blog posts.
Jealousy can turn someone who was once a lovely person to a worst version of themselves. Check out this blog post which is related to that:
I have seen the good and the bad this year, and just because you have known someone for a long time, doesn’t mean they are loyal, especially if they continue to let you down when meeting up or you know they are slagging you off behind your back.
My marriage came to an end and I moved out to live in Wimbledon and found that my true love was living around the corner from me. It is amazing how you can find true love on your doorstep but yes it is true.
I have written a few books this year, Like the Peabody years, which I took down from Amazon to rewrite as it was quite short and there were a whole load of stories I wanted to add. I wrote a few EBooks this year and if you want to check these out, go to Amazon.com for details or click on the links below,
I want to build my confidence to speak to my camera again to film more Youtube videos. My confidence to film for my Youtube channel plummited and really want to bring this back.
The one thing I didn’t get to do was to go on holiday which I would like for next year and would like to walk more and get up at a reasonable time again, as I am sleeping onto early afternoon or later and that takes over a whole day.
My body clock is all over the place as I don’t sleep at night because I have had a lot of terrible nightmares.
I was put on different medication called Quetipin, as I was suffering a lot with depression this year and at one point very suicidal.
However, I want my blogs to continue to be successful and relative to those who like this blog site.
I want to live life and not exist which I have written in a lot of blog posts this year, but is true. I was with someone who was obsessed with cleaning, but am I going to get remembered for being the person always washed up after herself? NO! I want to be seen as a successful writer who was never afraid to show her feelings to those who she loved and made it clear that no matter how much I put myself down sometimes I do have respect for myself and others.
I want to work on TV and have one of my books made into a TV series and is a real ambition of mine and would like to write and publish more books and want two to be publised by the end of this year.
I have a new Online Course which is a Child Safety course so I will let you know when this is ready to be launched and published.
Hello and welcome! So each week I am going to write about inspiring people and the one person I would like to talk about is Barbara Windsor, who was in all the Carry on Films, did many stage plays and pantos, and just as I wrote this blog, it came into my head and i remember I did see her in real life, where she played the Fairy in the Panto favourite, Dick Whittington. This was on at the Lyric Theatre in Hammersmith.
There has been many things I have forgotten and that was one of them. It was the same one where I saw Sue Pollard and Burnie Winters, and the ladies who organized and put together Girl Night on our estate got the tickets to take us to see it.
Uncle Bark loved her and wanted her to be in porridge and play his daughter or wife, but it never happened that way, and Sid James was a bit of a geezer fell for her instantly but felt she was to good for him and said she should be with a nice young man, not someone like him. They didn’t have a love affair but played alongside the press to make out they did.
Sid James saw Lady Barbara as a little sister and would have never used her, as he was a very private guy and loved his wife to bits and so kept her to himself as she wished. He honoured women and never abused any that came in contact with him.
They were really good friends and he took her under his wing and made sure noone harmed her in anyway. Sid James could be the nicest guy in town but if you pissed him off, he would be a typical Londoner and thump then without a second thought.
Barbara Windsor as Peggy was her, as she was like me, petite, a good pair of breasts and sweet if we knew you to be nice but can turn if she came in contact with an arsehole, and never would have worked with people who were like that. She respected people who loved her work and loved her fans, and liked those who respected people like she did too, and sadly she died in a Care Home, which she never wanted.
I know we have seen her boobs, and she laughs because if that had been herself she would have never done any of that, but actors like Barbara would instantly go into their charactor to help give them the confidence to do that kind of bravodo.
Barbara had acted since she was a child and was in adverts to begin with. Her mum wanted her to act, but her father never. You see I wish to make it on TV too, but I have the same story, because someone has been stopping me and I won’t say who, but they know who they are.
She was determined to create her dream into reality, and so when her parents split her mum who looked after her, but her dad still had his way, but he was arrested for fraud, as he allowed her to be famous as long as he got her wage not her.
It is tough when your guardians who should be on the same page go against each other and don’t want the best for you. I have learned this year, that there are a lot of selfish people out there, and should be left behind.
Her first Carry on she did, was Carry on the Empire, but this was never released as it was seen to be too rauchy. Had her dad intervene? only she would know, she could have been sewed as one character was going to send up her father, along the producers and writers who made those films.
They didn’t want to be put in the newspapers as too dirty for TV, so they scraped it and made a new one.
They had to scrap, Carry on the Empire, when they were on the last days of filming and a telegram was sent to the Director or producer and it was never released. Carry on films never took 2 minutes to make, some would take up an entire summer and they never had the technology we had back then, and the stunts you see in these films were done in one take usually and and it was better to film in good sunny weather or warm, rather than cold, but Carry on Camping was as you see it a muddy field.
It never stopped raining but had to go with it, as it made the film real life like as that is typical English weather.
The first carry on film was in 1964 and was approved by the TV Broadcasting film directors of the BBC. They were on at picture houses, which are now called Cinemas, but any british films had to be approved by these board of TV Directors and didn’t like a lot of nudity or anything seen as graphic.
Yet there had been a change of personnel, who did like this film and so it was able to be completed and watched at every cinema in London and then the rest of the UK.
Barbara was a thorough bred, she was a Londoner through and through, and even the Queen loved and adored her. She was adored by so many because even I saw her again in Bayswater, she had this multicoloured all in one body suit, and I regret saying this but I did, and that “My mum looked better than her”. I am sorry Barbara, I don’t even know where that came from, looking back you do see things very differently, but no Barbara you were a household name and a model sometimes, for a reason, as she liked her privacy too, and was very aware of what some of her picture attracted and didn’t want to be seen turning towards the bad side of fame, in anyway, and was naturally beautiful, and dressed as a Londoner who’s life had changed, and dressed as if she was still in the 60’s.
The eastend girl loved her Pie ‘n’ mash and visiting Petticoat Lane market, and you wouldn’t believe it, but many of her clothes and items she bought were from the market and rarely wore designer. Accasionally it would be High street, and she did like to have the designer treat once or twice a year, but like me she liked Market products because back when markets were around it wasn’t knocked off goods, they were handmade and a one off.
A famous costume of mine that I were when holidaying in Clacton, came from a market stall down North end road and was when I first met my new love Lee. So you see, “Once you are a Londoner, you’ll always be a Londoner and a market isn’t a market if it doesn’t have a fruit and veg stall, odds and sods, and glad rags”.
Barbara did have a house in Chelsea too and would live there too when she would be doing Panto’s and plays in London, and not far from where I spent a lot of my childhood and where my family are from, as my family are mainly from the South West of London, but she liked looking in the shops down the Kings Road, Chelsea.
The East Londoner, did receive a honoury award for her work on Televsision and being Peggy Mitchel, which relaunched her career and had the catchphrase “Get out of my pub” which me and my friends at the rugby would reinact.
The one thing most people don’t know about Eastenders they are home grown actors and mostly have come from the Eastend or the Southwest, but you’ll rarely see appart from once an actor from up north being a Londoner, if they did speak Northen England Language that was real, and so are the Londoners in it. Every cast member is a true Londoner and that is why it stands out, the same as Coronation Street, who are true Northeners and are competition, but they stand out from the others.
I have stopped watching Eastenders now, but there was a time where I did watch it religiously, but some topics are a bit too close to home, and so staying clear of it. However, it is a long running soap opera and continues to grow along with the cast, but yes if you wondered that, then that is true and you will never see a non Londoner doing a London accent as soap writers like to keep it pure as possible, hence why Barbara Windsor loved it so much.
Barbara Windsor was a true Londoner who never changed but grew as we all grew up, and even if you didn’t know her, you always felt you did.
Here is a video of some images and highlights of her life, in an ITV tribute:
She will be missed, and it is sad that her life has ended as I think she would have still liked to be remembered not for having Demita but for her effortless acting and the smile that lit up the room, and made you feel welcomed and if you had known her for years.
As Uncle Bark used to say “A lady isn’t a lady who wines and dines all of the time, where frilly frocks, but someone who can be femine and masculine at the same time, yet still turn people heads wherever they go”.
Barbara, there is a G and T waiting for you, and tell Uncle Bark to use his own jokes not mine. So Goodnight from him and Goodnight to her, as we raise the curtains in our hearts forever more.
Here is one of Barbara Windsors songs and I sang as a kid, as I always knew I’d end up in Wimbledon as there was a Prince and is one around the corner. Barbara did have a good man in her life, but kept him a secret and he never got to say these last words to her “Thanks you my treasure the love heart you gave to me, if you isee you bursting I’ll take you to have a Pee, and when you fall I will lift you up, and when someone stabs you in the back I’ll raise a sword to their heads and say don’t over step the mark you tramp, she’s my bird not yours, so get up and move on your bore. She is mine and one day when we meet it will be the best drink she’s ever had. God bless you, my Barbara, my treasure forever more”.
I love people like Barbara Windsor, as she was so real and loved the fame that came with her acting career and never shyed away from anyone and made everyone feel comfortable and as if she was your mum,too. Merry Christmas Barbara and I will be having my Snowball this year so cheers.
So I suppose you wondering if I had met her or not?
Some may question, and I want you to tell me if I am lieing or not. I love this show, and so did Barbara, but never got the chance so I am playing would I lie to you, through my blog, for her, let me say this to help you if I knew her, Does a bear shit in the woods?