Last Friday I met up with my friends and all was going well, I was telling them about my husband work, and suddenly I felt self conscious, I no idea why, and I began to feel myself stutter and struggling with words.
I have talked about Social Anxiety before in a Christmas blog, check it out in link below:
I suddenly felt aware that I was talking and being looked at whilst I spoke, which is perfectly normal but suddenly felt self conscious and started feeling paranoid because I was worried in case my friends were laughing at me.
This has happened before many times and it has been picked up on by people too, and I suddenly feel mortified and embarrassed, wanting the ground to swallow me up.
Has anyone else had this happen?
What I did after then was kept quiet and listened to my friends speak, and then once I pulled myself together than began to talk some more.
It just feels like someone grabbing my words and muddled them all up in my brain and I have no control over it.
Having social anxiety does really knock my confidence, but I tried to bounce back from those feelings as much as I can, but find they can haunt me now then.
There was a time where I didn’t have those feelings, and came out of shell more, and think was due to atmosphere. I try to think of those times when I felt fully confident and try to be the same person, but I struggle now.
I think I have struggled more as I have gotten older.
Do you suffer from social anxiety?
How do you try to control it?
Many thanks for reading,