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Mirror mirror on the wall who is the greatest of them all.

When we look in the mirror what do you see, what do we think of ourselves and what would we change.

I hear you answer everything, I hate myself, I hate my boobs, my hair, my body, it is ugly and not what I imagine myself looking.

I can relate to this so much as I would in the passed go through those thoughts and feelings when I looked at myself in the mirror. I did develop and eating disorder, and it did bring me down to the point I felt sometimes perhaps I am better of not being in this world at all.

However you can get over these feelings, like I have by learning and saying to yourself “No more I am not going to allow these feelings of hatred towards myself anymore”

I got to the point where I was sick of feeling low and disliking myself that I decided “Right I am going to do something about this” and I have. No one in this world is perfect but everyone has strengths and everyone has weaknesses and it is how you take on challenges in your life that can make a difference. It is OK not to know everything or have everything in life, as I like not knowing sometimes, it is the unknown that can excite us and make us surprised that once we entered the unknown we can find surprises and things we have always wanted. The not having everything you want can help make you stronger by aiming towards these things, but it will take commitment, but think about the goals you want in life and go for them.

When I got married for example I hadn’t really had many serious relationships, so even though we had been together for 4 years before we wedded I had no idea really of what I was getting myself into, and I bet my husband had know idea too. I remember him continuously saying before we got married “It won’t change anything really as we already spend a lot of time together anyway” I am not sure if he was meaning this or trying to tell himself, but no one knows what being married to someone is like until they actually get married. My husband even admits that even though you think marriage won’t change a relationship it does.

So when getting married it was entering the unknown but now I am on the other side, it has been a rollercoaster at times, but we are still together and that has lead to amazing surprises, that I have the gift of love, I enjoy giving love to someone I can have a laugh with and be friends with aswell as being married to the person I had chosen, and now we have the best gift of all, a child.

This has helped me with my confidence, along with writing and exercise. I remember doing that first run, I felt like my throat was going to fall out, and my legs were gone give way, it was extremely hard, but with time and commitment I now run as if I have run all my life.

So with building confidence comes commitment, learning, making those lifestyle changes that can lead you to the unknown but will surprise and help bring you better confidence.

You will be surprised at what you can achieve when you put your heart and mind into it.

So I will support you all the way and lets get cracking.

Many thanks for reading,

Carrie X