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I knew as a kid that I didn’t want just a job and do something different to what other kids wanted to do and as a kid I wanted to be famous because I never was the popular kid and starting school I was a loner and it took me ages to form friends.

As I gone through life I have been different depending on where I am, like when I went to dancing school in Fulham in London on Saturday’s and first I was shy and would get anxious and cry, but then when I realised I was good at it didn’t look back and I loved it. I am now a mum living in Wimbledon in South West London and finally have a good balance with being a mum, writing and looking after myself and my wellbeing and its taken a long while to achieving my goals and ambitions.

I like who I am now. I still can be self critical and allow the negative thoughts come through, but I have started to be resilient to those thoughts and use proof to these thoughts that I can be who I want to be. It has taken a long time and I don’t want to just stop, but keep going, that is what I am all about.

You can lose your way and I did. I have been battling with managing my mental health and now back on my feet and never felt such strength before and feel more good things coming away. It has taken its time, but I have never lost my ambition or my drive, and know I have to make the choices and stand on my own two feet. I have to be strong for my son and he is my priority, and struggled with motherhood and so that took a back seat, whilst I got back on my feet, and the bond never went and we have so much fun now and want my son to learn from me, and if he ever has struggles that he will talk to me about them so he can have balance in his life too.

It is good to talk about your ambitions and live the life you want and not what somebody else wants, and have habits that help towards to be the person you want to be and feel good. If anythings feels like a chore then something needs to change, because in my experience, it can make you put it off.

There are a lot of things I still want to do and I still a lot of growing and building to do, but lay off on myself and be proud of who I am and I like having good conversation and so start going through the area of your self you do like, and what you can improve and set a plan for yourself to get there.

So, who do you want to be? And I’d like to hear from you and so you can leave a comment below, and if you like my blogs then please follow me so you can be updated whenever post and don’t miss one.

Many thanks for reading,

Carrie X

Typical London Gal